Fear, like joy, usually means that you're exactly where you should be, learning what you're ready to learn, about to become more than who you were.

The dots ...

So as it turns out I have decided to take on the offer.
Peanuts, and skeptical about how things will turn out. Nonetheless, shall go at it head on and see what happens.

It's such an uneasy decision and I must learn to make decisions without worrying too much what other people think. Though when it comes to my parents it is a little harder. It's hard to not feel judged.

I believe the dots will connect. Eventually.

Interview, round II

Thank You for staying close for my first interview, and thank You for making it a good experience.
I have got another interview in an hour, please let me present myself the best I can, and please guide the way for the perfect job for me. You're the man with the plan, I am ready.

Also thank You for making Dr. M.W. like me enough to want to see me again tomorrow.
But, one thing at a time, let me focus on the task at hand right now.

Crosses to Bear.

It is a true test for Lent, and Easter, this news.
Prayer for God's grace, may He grant me the wisdom and whatever ability I need to face it, to be the better person.

Iridescent

When you were standing in the wake of devastation
When you were waiting on the edge of the unknown
With the cataclysm raining down
Your insides crying, "Save me now"
You were there, impossibly alone

And in a burst of light that blinded every angel
As if the sky had blown the heavens into stars
You felt the gravity of tempered grace
Falling into empty space
With no one there to catch you in their arms

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?
You build up hope, but failures all you've known
Remember all the sadness and frustration
And let it go
Let it go.

梁繼璋曾給兒子寫過一封信

香港電臺知名主持人梁繼璋曾給兒子寫過一封信，這封信很快流傳於各大網站，很多父親看後感觸很深，我覺得不只給兒子，其實適合所有人看！

下輩子，無論愛與不愛，都不會再見----送給兒子的備忘錄

我兒：寫這備忘錄給你，基於三個原則：

1. 人生福禍無常，誰也不知可以活多久，有些事情還是早一點說好。

2. 我是你的父親，我不跟你說，沒有人會跟你說。

3. 這備忘錄記載的，都是我經過慘痛失敗得回來的體驗，可以為你的成長省回不少冤枉路。

以下，便是你在人生中要好好記住的事：

（一）對你不好的人，你不要太介懷，在你一生中，沒有人有義務要對你好，除了我和你媽媽。

至於那些對你好的人，你除了要珍惜、感恩外，也請多防備一點，因為，每個人做每件事，總有一個原因，他對你好，未必真的是因為喜歡你，請你必須搞清楚，而不必太快將對方看作真朋友。

（二）沒有人是不可代替，沒有東西是必須擁有。

看透了這一點，將來你身邊的人不再要你，或許失去了世間上最愛的一切時，也應該明白，這並不是什麼大不了的事。

（三）生命是短暫的，今日你還在浪費著生命，明日會發覺生命已遠離你了。

因此，愈早珍惜生命，你享受生命的日子也愈多，與其盼望長壽，倒不如早點享受。

（四）世界上並沒有最愛這回事，愛情只是一種霎時的感覺，而這感覺絕對會隨時日、心境而改變。

如果你的所謂最愛離開你，請耐心地等候一下，讓時日慢慢沖洗，讓心靈慢慢沉澱，你的苦就會慢慢淡化。不要過分憧憬愛情的美，不要過分誇大失戀的悲。

（五）雖然很多有成就的人士都沒有受過很多教育，但並不等於不用功讀書，就一定可以成功。

你學到的知識，就是你擁有的武器。人，可以白手興家，但不可以手無寸鐵，謹記！

（六）我不會要求你供養我下半輩子，同樣地我也不會供養你的下半輩子，當你長大到可以獨立的時候，我的責任已經完結。

以後，你要坐巴士還是Benz（賓士），吃魚翅還是粉絲，都要自己負責。

（七）你可以要求自己守信，但不能要求別人守信，你可以要求自己對人好，但不能期待人家對你。

你怎樣對人，並不代表人家就會怎樣對你，如果看不透這一點，你只會徒添不必要的煩惱。

（八）我買了十多二十年六合彩，還是一窮二白，連三獎也沒有中，這證明人要發達，還是要努力工作才可以，世界上並沒有免費午餐。

（九）親人只有一次的緣分，無論這輩子我和你會相處多久，也請好好珍惜共聚的時光，下輩子，無論愛與不愛，都不會再見。

Blessed.

FB album. Blessed.

A Sunday in March.

- Drove to Hamburg Villa, Ma did flowers for church... beautiful orchids.

- Went to Ricci Hall @Pok Fu Lum. Great sermon. It was about politics. It wasn't politics. The priest's sermon was about saving politics. It is good to have politics, and where there's people, there'll be politics, be it a family, church, office, or the very city we live in. No human being is perfect, we all have sinned before. It reminded me of how we shouldn't judge. I learnt not to judge through another way, another realisation, but a fact to me nonetheless. It was good to see Michael 哥哥, pretty much the only person I recognised. (Funny little side story: this must've happened when I was 2 yrs old, he was the first person who bought me 麥精維他奶, warm, in a glass bottle. This is actually my own memory... Apparently he's also the guy who gave me my first rose. Ha!).

- Lunch at 白玉蘭 @IFC. Beautiful plates... [photo ^^] Food was great - dim sum nom nom... comfortable environment, good service, very posh area but price was surprisingly affordable, not cheap, but for a place that class, not bad. @$110 (Auntie Flora [阿花] and family, Michael, Doris, Chan's) 

 

- HKJC HV for a few hours... Pa and Ma went Wan Chai... It was great set up for me. Did some reading about making a cat-friendly practice. Also watched the movie New York, I love you. Was a good movie imo, not fantastic, but I enjoyed it anyhow. :)

 

- Dinner at Heichirou with 波王張, Auntie Pat and Auntie Winnie. Uber yummy dinner, 片皮鴨 was the feature definitely, but plenty of other yummy foods completed with dessert.
- Drove home. :)

Be

"People are often unreasonable, illogical, and self centered; Forgive them anyway. If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives; Be kind anyway. If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies; Succeed anyway. If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you; Be honest and frank anyway. What you spend years building, someone could destroy overn...ight; Build anyway. If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous; Be happy anyway. The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow; Do good anyway. Give the world your best you have and it may never be enough; Give the world the best you've got anyway. You see, in the final analysis it is between you and God; It was never between you and them anyway."
-Mother Teresa


- from asanji's fb status.

曬命事件簿

其一:
HM treated me to 《東京事變 Live Tour 2012 Domestique Bon Voyage》戲院直播 yesterday. The experience was different, can't say I've seen a concert broadcasted before, but I enjoyed the date, a lot. It was perfect, in my eyes.

We met up at Tai Wo station, (I have spent the afternoon with V and her mum at Kadoorie Farm & Botanical Gardens), took the train to Tsuen Wan West. Along the way we had some funny conversations, not intelligent, by any means, but I had a good laugh till my cheeks hurt. Along the short walk to the cinema we passed by a bus station, where there was a bus he could take back to TP, but he said he'll take the train so he can accompany me (I practically melted?!). It wasn't long till we ended up at the mall we need to be at, and we had a meal at a cute cozy cafe, I ended up getting a vegetarian noodle soup, and bubble tea. I got quite a sweet deal - dinner was on me and HM got the tix...

It wasn't particularly crowded at the cinema, the seats were comfy, and I was well fed (maybe too well fed...). The feeling of it being streamed live from Tokyo, people actually watching this while we were watching it just felt funny for some reason. I shouldn't really be surprised, because Skype existed for YEARS?!!

The concert was great! To be honest I only know maybe 10-15 songs by Tokyo Jihen, and I'm sure the level of appreciation HM has is far greater than mine. I must admit the first half hour or so I was REALLY sleepy. Prolly coz of the food? The sleepiness dampened and I was really enjoying the concert, the performance was great. I like Shiina Ringo, but I never saw her perform, she was totally into it and a great performer! There was such glamour! The guitarist was awesome, with the MANY guitars he changed in between songs (I swear there was at least TEN). The drummer was very cute, he took his camera out on several occasions to document his band members, and the audience. I also liked his make up! He had stars/glitter on his eyelid and below his eyebrows! The bassist seems to be the most mature of the 5, he was 陶醉 in his own music too. Couldn't help but notice how his wrists were wrapped up for support, hope he doesn't get arthritis too soon. The keyboardist was awesome! He also played the guitar. I swear a keyboard makes a band complete, just doesn't sound nearly as nice when they don't have it (then again, I still like Zodiac's music though they don't have a keyboard).

I really enjoyed the live broadcast, although I must say I would prolly have more of a "high" if we were actually in the concert, definitely felt idle and not participating enough! However, I am by NO means complaining. It was a wonderful evening.

其二:
究竟誰陪誰...?
Ma took the day off, and we spent the day together. Went to SKM/SSP for food - had snake soup (!) and glutinous rice, fishball/fishcake noodle soup and vege, kaya french toast, then had hazelnut coffee. Before the coffee we visited a stationary shop and my mum bought me arts supplies <3. We also managed to visit a new design school in Hong Kong (SCAD). We had the coffee at Jockey Club Creative Arts Centre. Next went to Jordan for her haircut. I just waited with her while she got her haircut (thank goodness for iPhone games!). It was at a small flat in a building close to Kowloon Park. The hairdresser was this older man (retired) and only taking few appointments. The convo included how good it is for me to accompany my mum, but in all honesty I think she's accompanying me? If she didn't take the day off I'll be just at home, prolly moping. After that we went in a clothing shop, and she bought me a jacket, the style looks like the black jacket I'm wearing at the moment, only more stylish, better quality, and posher! SPOILT. 曬命-ing. We then went towards PCC and walking through Kowloon Park. The flowers 風信子 were beautiful... We went to the wet market and bought some vege, then I came home while she went to PCC.

...
So many more things to brag about but I think I should call it a night for now.