RTHK-鏗鏘集 - 退休退憂 28/1/2013

Can it not be so grey?

Interesting link... on what not to say to kids and what to say instead...

http://lifehacker.com/10-things-to-stop-saying-to-your-kids-and-what-to-say-474962146?utm_campaign=socialflow_lifehacker_facebook&utm_source=lifehacker_facebook&utm_medium=socialflow

Priming my head...? Maybe?

HK coffee guide~

http://www.e-tingfood.com/2012/12/hong-kong-coffee-guide.html

CYM x Nyan cat

Haha!

Gatekeeper

祝福家庭禱文

First Openrice Review, haha!

http://www.openrice.com/restaurant/reviews.htm?shopid=115845&tc=sr1list

Ceramics

Something I want to do...
http://m.hkas.edu.hk/?p=2&l=1&m1=16&m2=1

燕詩 白居易

梁上有雙燕 翩翩雄與雌 銜泥兩椽間 一巢生四兒
四兒日夜長 索食聲孜孜 青虫不易捕 黃口無飽期
嘴爪雖欲敝 心力不知疲 須叟十來往 猶恐巢中飢
辛勤三十日 母瘦雛漸肥 喃喃教言語 一一刷毛衣
一旦羽翼成 引上庭樹枝 舉翅不回顧 隨風四散飛
雌雄空中鳴 聲聲呼不歸 郤入空巢裡 啁啾絡夜北
燕燕爾勿悲 爾當反自思 思爾為雛日 高飛背母時
當時父母念 今日爾應知

Pitch Perfect

Experiencing life as a disabled person......

dog bite.
third injury in less than 6 months.
:( a sign?

:)

Veterinarian depression and suicide article

http://www.veterinaryteambrief.com/article/impaired-veterinarian-recognizing-depression-possible-suicide

Cover - Pull Me Under // Dream Theater

It is easy to fall back in old ways even when there had been glimpse of enlightenments.

There is the constant problem that I have faced.
The constant was me.

It's interesting how in the Awareness pdf that I have been reading, saying how 'me' and 'I' are different.
It's totally confusing me, and perhaps as De Mello mentioned, most people are asleep.
I am asleep.

Beginning to understand...

“Those who know, do not say; those who say, do not know.”

Tennessee

I like this piece. 

My favourite vet.

An unexpected surprise when i went for late lunch at the squirrel.
I was gifted with two stories.
One abt how he and his wife got married.
The second one was how he was the rebel of the family.

Even more reason for me to look up to him.

Blue Like Jazz

Interesting movie.

Analogy...

Imagine a patient who goes to a doctor and tells him what he is suffering from. The doctor says, “Very well, I’ve understood your symptoms. Do you know what I will do? I will prescribe a medicine for your neighbor!” The patient replies, “Thank you very much, Doctor, that makes me feel much better.” Isn’t that absurd? But that’s what we all do. The person who is asleep always thinks he’ll feel better if somebody else changes. You’re suffering because you are asleep, but you’re thinking, “How wonderful life would be if somebody else would change; how wonderful life would be if my neighbor changed, my wife changed, my boss changed.”

You.

You’re not O.K. and you’re not not O.K., you’re you.

Hope for the future?

You want to hope for something better than what you have right now, don’t you? Otherwise you wouldn’t be hoping. But then, you forget that you have it all right now anyway, and you don’t know it. Why not concentrate on the now instead of hoping for better times in the future? Why not understand the now instead of forgetting it and hoping for the future? Isn’t the future just another trap?

Lesson to be learnt.

Gain some, lose some.
This happens in every single situation, even when you think something is supposed to be really good. like 100% good. nothing is 100% good. there's just things.

Fear...

You cannot fear something that you do not know. Nobody is afraid of the unknown. What you really fear is loss of the known. That's what you fear.

Success: Full Relating - Reference Materials

For my own reference

Peaceful Warrior~

Renunciation...

When you fight something, you’re tied to it forever. As long as you’re fighting it, you are giving it power. You give it as much power as you are using to fight it.

Kids, grown up children, adults.

- today I realise a few things adults could learn from kids, and how grown up children has a role to teach/reassure adults what they taught us when children were kids.

Fear...

"I'm scared as hell to want you, but here I am, wanting you anyway. And fear means I have something to lose, right? And I don't want to lose you."

領略...

Forget all your dreams... just be.
生命就像風箏般，飛得高，跌得快。
生命唯一的出路，就是面對。

Be. Do. Have.

Time is flying by...

I can't believe I am saying this, but it is indeed April already.
I thought 2013 started not too long ago?

Sex, marriage, and fairytales

I did fine this a wow vid.

Dalai Lama quote...

We have to think and see how we can fundamentally change our educational system so that we can train people to develop warm-heartedness early on in order to care a healthier society. I don't mean we need to change the whole system, just improve it. We need to encourage an understanding that inner peace comes from relying on human values like, love, compassion, tolerance, and honesty, and that peace in that world relies on individuals finding inner peace.
Fb 1/2/13

賺人熱淚

http://mywifesfightwithbreastcancer.com/

Get Rid of Anything that isn't Useful, Beautiful or Joyful~

holy week summarised in 2mins

snoozing - a losing battle.

There will always be a part of me that is dirty and sloppy, but I like that, just like all the other parts of myself. I can forgive. Can you say the same for yourself, fucker? Can you forgive? Are you capable of that?

bawled my eyes out.

27th Dec 2011 Turkey

Yum Salad Idea!

http://www.thedailymuse.com/health/3-more-mason-jar-salads-youll-love/

Wardrobe essentials?

Ponder ponder.
http://apairandasparediy.com/2011/06/the-perfect-wardrobe-essentials.html

Suggestions for your essentials:

Jackets & Sweaters:

• The perfect leather jacket
• The trench
• The Blazer
• The knit

Tops

• White and black tees
• Breton top
• White silk shirt
• Black and white singlets

Bottoms

• Black fitted skirt
• Black pleated skirt
• Leather shorts
• Lace shorts
• Black Maxi Skirt
• White Trousers
• Perfect washed blue jeans (for your body shape)
• Cut of denim shorts

Dresses

• Perfect LBD (for your bodyshape)
• Statement coloured dress in your fave colour
• Camel dress
• Breton dress

Shoes

• Black and nude ballet flats
• Black classic pumps
• strappy flat sandals
• Suede ankle boots

Accessories

• Fedora hat
• Scarf
• Sunglasses
• Black patent belt
• Patent clutch
• Watch
• Everyday black handbag

wardrobe rehab

http://apairandasparediy.com/2011/09/wardrobe-rehab-6-steps-to-your-perfect-closet.html

How to DIY in 5 steps

http://apairandasparediy.com/2011/08/how-to-diy-5-steps.html

Interesting read...

期待中...

http://www.jnto.go.jp/sakura/eng/city.php?CI=10

Cafe de...

http://www.yagumoan-cafe.jp/

廣東人小廚 @ 沙田圍

Charities...

Not really the top of my priorities right now, but I keep forgetting about this website.
Now that it's blogged, I shouldn't forget...
http://www.wisegiving.org.hk

Movie Marathon...

Day off...
Watched three feel good movies.

Ruby Sparks
Liberal Arts
Wreck-it Ralph

Had dinner with my beloved HM...

What forgiveness isn't...

Interesting things I learn... Just thought I shall note it down somewhere to remind me later on, somewhere down the line I may need these wisdom.

What Forgiveness Isn't...

Forgiveness isn’t an instant cure.

While forgiveness will remove the barrier that hurt or betrayal has created, there are misconceptions about the feelings and results that come after the decision to forgive.

First, forgiveness does not destroy our memory. We’ve heard the phrase “forgive and forget,” but most of the time, that’s just not humanly possible. The human brain records every experience, good and bad. A memory of the event simply means that you are human and remembering a painful experience.

Second, forgiveness does not remove the consequences of the wrong behavior. All of our behavior has consequences, and forgiveness does not change that.

Third, forgiveness does not rebuild trust. When trust is destroyed in a relationship, it can only be rebuilt by a change in behavior over a period of time.

Fourth, forgiveness does not always result in reconciliation. While the possibility of reconciliation is fostered by forgiveness, reconciling a relationship requires time, conflict resolution, and teamwork.

Forgiveness may not be an easy fix for a relationship, but it is certainly the first step to healing.

A touching video.

Slightly R Rated photos...

... but too cute not to repost. :P

6 years of friendship.

3/3/2007 

Celebrate friendship.

流芳濟世

Interesting read...

http://www.christinehassler.com/2013/02/what-i-would-tell-my-20-something-self/

I'm writing this blog after facilitating a retreat for YPO where most of the participants were 20-somethings. I was inspired by their strong intentions to be successful in all aspects of their lives. I was also touched by the incredible amount of pressure, expectations, confusion, and anxiety that they were experiencing. Embarking on the decade where they feel like they have to “figure it all out” felt incredibly overwhelming to them.

I totally get it…because that is how I felt in my twenties. I believed that I was supposed to have a plan for my entire life and put an extraordinary amount of pressure on myself. I was able to create a lot of external results, but it cost me a lot of joy, peace, play, and presence during my twenties.

As I taught and guided them this weekend, I also reflected upon my own 20-something experience, which was a very challenging decade for me. As I look back with gratitude and compassion, there are many things I want to tell my 20-something self. Here are some of the things I would say to her:

Please don’t be so hard on yourself.

Be gentle.

Speak to yourself in more loving and encouraging ways. Your inner dialogue is the most powerful voice you hear. Turn down the volume of the critic so the voice of your inner knowing gets louder.

Smile. A lot.

You are doing the best you can. Always looking for ways to be more, better or different is NOT the formula for success.

You think it is motivating you to create results, but it is completely exhausting.

Look for what inspires you rather than what drives you. Allow your curiosity to lead you.

You know that guy you are obsessed about getting to like you? In five years you won’t even remember his name.

You know that job you are devastated about not getting? There is a way better opportunity coming around soon.

Don’t wait for fear to go away before you go after something you want. Being scared is natural. You’ll become more courageous each time you feel fear and do it anyway.

Stop comparing yourself to others, it is preventing you from seeing and discovering your own unique gifts and what you are here to express to the world. Know that the qualities you admire in others are the qualities you need to recognize and nurture inside yourself.

Your parents are people too with issues and triggers. They are getting used to having an adult child just as you are getting used to being an adult.

You are going to get over your heartbreak. I know it feels so painful right now. Cry all your tears, get it out, and then let it go. Take the lessons you learned and move forward. You will love and be loved again. And you will be so grateful for your heartache because it taught you so much about love.

Take leaps of faith – even when you don’t know where you are going to land. You are going to develop so much courage and trust in yourself as you take risks. It’s okay not to be 100% sure…51% sure is enough to take the leap.

Be of service. Have a generous heart. That is how you make a difference in the world.

Enjoy your body. Stop obsessing about it. Stop trying to make it into some perfect image of what you think it should be. You look fantastic, take lots of pictures and wear bikinis more often.

“No” is a complete sentence. You don’t need to follow it with justifications and apologies.

The decisions you are making are not all forever decisions. I know you feel so much pressure to figure it all out right now and everything feels like a major decision. It’s not. Choose what feels the best for RIGHT NOW and trust you will learn from each choice you make.

You will find your passion and purpose. Everything that you are going through now is a piece of the puzzle. Just because you don’t know how the puzzle comes together yet doesn’t mean it’s not being assembled.

Sometimes figuring out what you want is a process of elimination. Let yourself experiment and try different things. It’s okay to change your mind, and the only way you’ll know if something is a fit is if you try it.

Cultivate your friendships. They will become the family you get to choose. Find friends who will grow with you and let go of the friendships that have reached their expiration date.

List the things you are grateful for every day.

Nurture your relationship with a Higher Power. Spend time in the silence and get to know The Divine. You are not separate.

What other people think of you is none of your business. People are always going to judge you. So what!?! It’s impossible to please everyone or be liked by everyone. Be you, the real you, not the version you think you need to be for others.

You are enough. You are perfect just the way you are.

Ask for help and support. You do not have to figure everything out on you own, and you are not supposed to have everything figured out right now. It’s okay not to know how, what, when, where and why.

Take compliments.

You are doing the best you can. And so is everyone else.

ENJOY the moment. Your mind is always in the future. Stop living in when/then’s. Be here now and have FUN. This is a time in your life where you can be a bit selfish and focus on what makes you happy.

Forgive. Yourself and anyone else you are holding judgments against.

You are not alone. So many other people feel the same way you do. Be willing to be vulnerable.

Rejection is God’s Protection. You can’t always get what you want but you do always get what you need – just not in the form or on the timeline you may have expected.

Each step is moving you forward, even if you feel like you are moving backward.

Breathe. Slow down. Take your time. It all works out. Your dreams come true and there are magical surprises is store. Life is amazing now and it gets even better!!!

You are loved. I love you.

From your 30-something Self,
Christine

How not to be a dick at the vets... [shared link]

http://www.xojane.com/relationships/how-not-to-be-a-dick-at-the-vet-hospital

Being raised by two veterinarians made for a very warped childhood. Most of my formative years were spent gazing at the innards of cats and dogs while Mom or Dad removed, stapled or otherwise rearranged internal organs. I used to take naps inside of kennels with the patients. I have no real concept of what polite dinner conversation is.

I always thought I would be a vet, until I worked at a vet hospital. Working at one and hanging out with your parents at one are very different things. Sometimes it is just one big kitten parade, but sometimes my mom has a Facebook status like this:

“I have seen 5 patients tonight and all 5 are now deceased. The worst night ever."

My mother has been a veterinarian longer than I have been alive (she graduated pregnant with me) and an emergency vet for over a decade, but even she has a hard time with this much death in one night. 

If only this were all veterinary medicine required.

Things like that status help remind me that I did make the right decision, career-wise.

Another reason I would not be a great vet: I am not great with owners, or “pet parents.” My dad is fond of saying “Not all pet owners are crazy, but all crazy people have pets.” Truer words never spoken. Usually, these crazy clients just make for a good story. 

One time, a client took her dead dog home and prayed over it for three days, thinking it would rise again. This same lady had previously explained to my father that all her dogs were sweet and wouldn’t bite because they “knew Jesus.” 

One time, a lady told my mom that she wanted her dog’s penis to be completely removed during neutering, because it was visible to her daughter. Except she didn’t say “penis,” she said “princess.”

One time, a man told me he wanted to get his dog the distemper vaccine, because Fluffy had been kind of a jerk recently.

My parents have a lot of funny stories. But, they also have some stories about people just being assholes. So I asked them (and all of my other vet-friends) to provide me with some helpful hints on how to not be a dick at your local vet hospital. My mom even wrote her own blog about it. 

1. Don’t Lie. 

I lie to my doctors all the time. I lie to my dentist about flossing, I lie to my MD about how much I drink, and if I had an OB/GYN, I’m pretty sure I would lie to her, too. I would mostly embellish for her though; my sexual history is the most boring sexual history of all the sexual histories.

But, I don’t lie to my vet. Mostly because she is my mom and can tell if I’m lying, but also because it would suck if something happened to Angie because I was too embarrassed to admit that I occasionally let her drink beer with me.

 I’m not the best at keeping her ears brushed.

If your dog ate your pot, it is really important that you tell the doctor that your dog ate your pot. THC is toxic to dogs. If your dog ate any prescription medication (legally obtained or otherwise), tell your vet. If your dog ate a condom that SOMEHOW has peanut butter inside it, tell your vet. Vets are also bound by doctor-patient confidentiality, so they’re not going to narc on you. They will report abuse however, such as people drugging their pets to “see what would happen.” Don’t do that.

Don’t lie about non-drug factors either. If you feed your pet human food, don’t say you only feed them IAMs. If you haven’t applied your flea prevention or heartworm prevention in a year, don’t say it’s been a month. Giving heartworm medication over heartworms can kill your pet, so it’s important that a heartworm test be done if you’ve fallen behind on the medication.

2. Follow instructions.

There was once a dog with two broken legs. My dad applied splints to each leg and told the owner to keep the dog confined and as stationary and dry as possible. The next week he went back to that same farm for a call and, as he so eloquently put it, “God damn if the dog didn’t chase my truck up the driveway... with splinted legs.”

Medical instructions are not suggestions. They are given from a place of medical knowledge. The above is an extreme example, but all instructions are important. Administer medications as directed and when directed and KEEP THE CONE OF SHAME ON.

Also, if you do have to go to an emergency clinic: GO TO YOUR FOLLOW-UP WITH YOUR REGULAR VET. 

3. Pick One Point of Contact.

Your vet usually has several cases going at once and does not have the time to explain one set of findings to five different people. Pick one person for the vet to talk to and do not ask them to call your husband/wife/mom/breeder to re-explain themselves.

4. Treat your vet like a doctor.

Don’t tell my parents I admitted they are real doctors. My dad tried to suture me once and I had to be all “You’re not a real doctor,” but they are. The most disrespectful thing you can say to your vet is “But, I read on the Internet…” or “My breeder told me you would say that but…”  We all read things on the Internet. You can read things I wrote on the Internet, proving that you should probably not get your facts from the Internet. 

If you are concerned about vaccines: Ask your vet as many questions as you need to feel comfortable. Not all are legally required, and a good veterinarian should be able to tell which ones are needed for your pet’s lifestyle. 

There is a reason they spent a quarter million dollars on their education, and that is so they can save the lives of sweet little animals.

5. Don’t try to emotionally bribe them.

I used to get really hurt when people would insinuate (or flat out accuse) my parents or the vets I worked for of being in it for the money. As I mentioned earlier, the average vet student graduates with a quarter million dollars of debt. Buying your own practice is another quarter million. The median income for this profession is 65K. 

Surgeries for pets are expensive, but so are surgeries for people. Telling the vet they are effectively killing Princess Fluffy Face because you can’t afford treatment is a real dick move. Owning an animal is a financial responsibility. If you can’t afford to feed, vaccinate, and treat the ailments of your pet, you should not have one. 

Expect to spend money. An office visit may be $50, but that only serves to identify the problem. Don’t expect a cheap home remedy for severe dermatitis. 

But, if you are up-front about how much money you can spend (and we all get in tight spots) your vet can work with you and will know to focus on the treatment aspect of things. To quote my mother, “X-rays are not therapeutic.”

6. Don’t show up 10 minutes until closing.

Yes, hospitals are open until they are closed, but if your dog has been puking since 10 AM, don’t wait until 5:30 PM to come in. If something becomes apparent at 5:30 PM, it might be best to go to your emergency clinic. I would recommend getting to the vet at least 30 minutes prior to closing. Several of my vet friends have babies (furry and otherwise) they would like to get home to.

My Vet-Friend, Brooke, with her fuzzy kid.

These are some of most common gripes, but the most important thing to remember is this:

Ninety percent of veterinarians are veterinarians because they feel they have a calling. I know enough of these people to know that they are not in it for the money. They are not in it for the hours. They are not in it for the heartbreak. They legitimately love animals.

My dad could care less about your baby, but he will talk to your puppy (not you, just the puppy) for an hour if you let him. I strongly suspect that he only visits me to visit Angie. He likes going to work, most vets I know do, and if they don’t it’s not because of Fluffy. It is because of Fluffy’s mom.

My dad and his Grand-dogs.

Chan's 2013 cny

Tai O.

*yappy*

it's funny how subliminal concepts play out.
this is 'sugar', i was mad about her and fell totally in love with her. i want a dog just like her, too bad she alrdy has a home!
i msged hm and said i wanted a labrador.

what i did not remember was that in 2002 i wrote that in 10 yrs time, along with other things, i wanted a labrador called yappy.

i think time spent visualising dreams is very important.
right now, i'm living just like how i would want to be in my dreams.
i could not ask for more.

Most fave pic of the year

Dinner at pearl court on 15/12/2012

A Christmas Eve.

Now playing - Celine Dion's - These are the Special Times.

Breakfast with HM and his mum. 

Morning visit to a Catholic church in Fan Ling with Hm's mum and her mum. 

Lunch at Mr. Yammy. Very tasty.

Walked back to train station and got home arnd 2pm.

** all of the above done without glasses or contact lens. **

- an interesting experience.

Smile. One of the many blessings.

Came across this a couple of months ago...

Lovely day off with Christmas decor

=) visited lladro shop and taste...

【家】不是講理的地方，是講愛的地方 愛一時容易，愛一生一世卻不容易

Meaningful email forward from Zoo back in 2009...

【家】不是講理的地方，是講愛的地方
愛一時容易，愛一生一世卻不容易

愛一個人……
要了解，亦要開解；
要道歉，亦要道謝；
要認錯，亦要改錯；
要體貼，亦要體諒；

是接受，而不是忍受；
是包容，而不是縱容；
是支持，而不是支配；
是慰問，而不是質問；

是傾訴，而不是控訴；
是難忘，而不是遺忘；
是彼此交流，而不是凡事交代；
是為對默默方祈求，
而不是向對方諸多要求；

可以浪漫，但不要浪費；
可以隨時牽手，但不要隨便分手；

以上都做到了，即使不再愛一個人，
也只有懷念，而不是懷恨。

德蘭修女智慧語錄

最美好的一天？　       今天
最簡單的事？　           犯錯
最大的阻礙？　           害怕
最嚴重的錯誤？　       自暴自棄
萬惡的根源？　           自私
最好的休閒生活？　   工作
最沈重的挫敗？　       灰心
最好的老師？　           兒童
最優先的需要？　       溝通
最令人快樂的事？　   幫助別人
人生最大的謎？　       死亡
人最大的缺點？　       壞脾氣
最低劣的感覺？　       怨恨
最貴的禮物？　           寬恕
最不可或缺的？　        家庭
最短的捷徑？　            直路
最使人愉悅的感覺？　內心的平安

最幸福的保單？　        微笑
最有效的解決之道？　樂觀
最大的滿足？　             完成該做的事情
全世界最強大的力量？  父母
世界上最美麗的？　      愛

最大的喜樂之一？擁有真正的朋友－－知道有人與你同在，即使他們不一定能幫你解決問題 。

one exam = one imac/two ipads...

failed once before...
wonder how i'll do this time...

To perpetually receive...

... perpetually give.

shared on fb post. i almost wanted to cry. can it not be so grey?

[人物傳記] 21世紀，月薪三萬元的港人。

嗨，我叫Anson，從小居屋戶、爸媽經營洗衣店，收入OK，但上有兩兄姊下有一弟的情況下，本來已談不上身家的資產也不會輪到我。除了弟弟，我們三兄姊弟中學畢業後也自力更生、自負盈虧。

大學畢業後幾年間輾轉打了幾份工，每次跳槽有加薪，待遇也更好，薪水好自然要改善生活，基於一屋擠著六人多年，也想試試獨處滋味，於是搬離娘家，租住一房小私樓，買一輛日系轎跑代步。

不妨直言，一個勤奮向上的高級銷售部主任平均月入三萬，孝子每月回贈爹娘五千，附送一份人壽保險一千、學費貸款一千、三餐膳食三千、豆潤單位月租九千、水電煤五佰、轎跑上會月供五千、車位月租二千，代步費兩千、外出車場五百、還有定期維修保養、牌費車保……。

生活其實OK的，在這個香港地能有一個人的家、一個人的車廂感覺特別優越。煙貴，還吃得起；油價加、還豪得起；人仔升，還花得起；餐搵餐食餐餐清，從沒有儲蓄的習慣，因為根本沒有需要儲蓄的原因，直至遇上她……。



阿晴是我一見鍾情的女生，除胸脯比較小巧外，實屬女神級質素。自第一天遇上她我便無法自拔的迷戀，還記得第一次在她樓下接載女神外出用膳，她一見我的轎跑便說：「哇，架車好有型呀！」我開心了幾個晚上，一切都值回票價。

適逢她情傷過後，巧逢住得又近，而且我又自住關係，這個天時地利人和讓我抱得美人歸。那個啪啪啪啪啪的晚上，我感動得落下男兒淚，她擘著腿問：「做乜喊呀BB？」我答：「實在太舒服喇…嗚……」其實是我真的很喜歡妳，阿晴。

當一個人的生活變成兩個人後，起初不同的只是多配一條門匙，膳食費按比例增加30%、每年預算多一筆外遊費、大時大節多花一點瑣碎慶祝費，全是有限錢，只要阿晴開心，什麼都OK，因為生活還OK。直至我們開始進入談婚論嫁的階段……。



我們開始為婚禮費用、婚後住屋問題與及家庭開支作出嚴謹的打算，當一個女人有了目標以後，是會變得嚴厲，溫柔得如阿晴也無可避免地對我逐漸封鎖，煙要戒、飯要帶、車……要賣。

阿晴和FD2二選其一，我選擇了前者，賣了跟我出生入死兩年的愛駒。那個早上，在移交車匙那刻，我緊緊握著車匙最後一角不放手，然後哭了，買家問：做乜喊呀Ching？」我答：「實在太唔捨得喇…嗚……」那刻我知我真的很愛阿晴。

沒有了私家車又節衣縮食的情況底下，我每月儲來萬五元，阿晴每月也有五千元助攻，我們的聯名戶口每月就有二萬進帳，預計一年後我們就能結成婚。然而，阿晴希望婚後買樓，說這樣才有將來，不然我們每月就白白花九千元來睡覺，於是，我跟兩老達成協議暫停回贈計劃，每月省來五千元。



我，其實是十二分討厭乘坐交通工具，也不習慣跟陌生人你眼望我眼，嘈吵的Roadshow電視聲、手機電玩聲、師奶聊天聲、還有粗鄙的歐盟二期引擎聲，每次上車Do八達通也感到異常委屈，身為公司Top Sales，為何要夾著公事包迫巴士？西裝給汗沾濕了，手提電腦給震傷了，我也被生活壓力迫爆了……。

一年後，我們順利結成夫婦，婚禮雖然不算富麗堂皇，阿晴撓著我手臂笑得蠻幸福。然而，親戚來賓卻沒有發現我眼窩中氾著無數的辛酸和無奈。穿起象徵幸運、幸福美滿的新郎裝，還有一位貌若天仙的新娘並著肩準備跟我走到海枯石爛，眼裡卻只有無名的仇恨。我是很愛阿晴，卻開始厭惡這個無間道的妖獸都市！「你們一個二個吃的乳豬炸子雞糯米飯，全都是我辛辛苦苦捱更抵夜節衣縮食煮來的！要是知道哪一個沒屁眼的混蛋敢給我蘋果日報作人情，我要他斷雙腳死雙親！！」這一種內心潛詞為整個囍宴染上一道紅，直至洞房花燭夜才令我感到活著的意義。射精那刻，我還未發現自己有病。

人情禮金連同血汗儲蓄，最後我們支付了首期，成功上樓當業主。單位雖小，成交後阿晴擁著我一臉幸福地說：「BB，我哋成功喇！」然後吻了我臉龐一口。阿晴，妳實在是完美無瑕，妳漂亮和溫柔的擁抱，可愛而不矯揉造作的依偎，我還認為自己在做夢。然而，艱苦生活是無了期。當成業主後，生活更緊張，供樓的錢已佔據我們總收入的大半，加上通脹加劇，任憑我每天多跑幾趟、三餐在家煮食、周末留在家煲劇、公假留港消費……我們每月所剩下的錢還是只得一兩千，實在百思不得其解，生活何以這樣緊迫？不要說什麼浮羅交怡，現在連翠華都吃不起！為何薪水升幅生活反而更難捱？兩年前，我還是一個出入旺區內新式私樓、轎跑代步的年輕才俊，點一口煙、拖一個波、踭子踏一下油門剎車，瀟灑如風又過一彎；兩年後升職了加薪了，反而要搬到元朗、捧著公事包滿頭大汗迫巴士電車地鐵走遍全港九R生意，還要留在公司叮飯！！為什麼？！我連手提上網都只有500mb！！連朋友Whatsapp發來的照片也不敢下載！為什麼？我是為了什麼活得如此繃緊？

就在這個快要迫瘋人的日子中，還出現一件令我百上加斤的事……我在一條濕滑的公路上，當了一個粗心大意的司機……是…我中出了阿晴，而阿晴也受精了。



一個不如意的早上，捽數會議被老闆以粗言穢語問候；接著不如意的中午，得知四個客戶被對家搶走了；繼而不如意的晚上，得知青山公路撞了一部FD2，Total Loss粉身碎骨，我認得那條蕉中尾。拖著抑壓、疲憊、憂傷的心情下班，想起待會還要乘一小時巴士再轉二十分鐘的小巴才回到家，心情再度一沉，我也想看黑絲江美儀！只是每天回到家已經是米雪。為何生活如此艱苦？為何薪水愈高生活愈苦？如今的我，每天支付兩程$21.40已覺吃力，為何馬路上仍然有這麼多私家車？駕寶馬和平治的人月薪到底有多少？人類又是怎樣買得起Aston Martin和Maserati？我到底為了什麼活得如此艱苦？！

在這個落幕低沉的晚上，我正想從公事包拿出白色的Headphone用音樂麻醉起伏的情緒，阿晴竟出現在公司樓下，就坐在大堂的沙發上！一見她甜美的笑容，心情立即得以緩解，她歡天喜地走過來撓著我的手臂說：「老公老公！等咗你好耐喇！」
我：「唔打俾我先？」
晴：「電話費貴嘛！」
我：「傻豬黎既！做乜無端端過黎等我放工？」
晴：「嘿！因為我有個好消息要即刻同你分享喔！」
我：「妳終於加人工拿？」
晴：「加就加喇！不過係我哋即將添加成員呀！」
我：「添加…成員……？」
晴：「嘻嘻嘻……」
我：「嘻嘻？」
晴：「哎…我有咗BB呀，嘻嘻！」
我：「吓…妳乜唔係…有食pills…既……咩？」
晴：「哈！奶奶咁想抱孫，我咪幫幫手囉！」
我：「幾……幾耐…既…既事？」
晴：「嘻！岩岩Check咗，原來已經七個禮拜喇！」
我：「七……七七七…個禮拜……………？」
晴：「係呀！所以我哋要開始儲錢喇！」
我：「呃呃呃呃…呃……………」
晴：「嘻！我之前仲諗緊re唔resign好！」
我：「呃呃…呃呃呃呃……」
晴：「老…老公？」
我：「呃呃呃呃…呃呃呃…呃呃呃呃呃！！！！」
晴：「老公你做乜野呀……老公！老公？」
我：「呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃……呃呃呃！呃你呃！！呃呃呃呃！呃呃！呃！呃呃呃…………呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃呃呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃呃呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃呃呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃的呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃呃呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃……呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃……呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃呃……呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃樣呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃……呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃呃……呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃……呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃呃……呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃子呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃……呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃呃……呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃……呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃呃……呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃如呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃……呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃…呃呃呃呃！呃…呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃…呃…呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃…呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃……呃呃！呃呃呃！呃…呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃……呃呃呃！呃呃呃…呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃……呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃…呃…呃！呃！呃…呃呃…呃！呃…呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃何呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃……呃呃呃！呃呃！！呃呃呃呃！呃呃！呃！呃呃呃…………呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃呃呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃……呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃……呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃…呃呃呃呃！呃…呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃…呃…呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃…呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃……呃呃！呃呃呃！呃…呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃……呃呃呃！呃呃呃…呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃……呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃…呃…呃！呃！呃…呃呃…呃！呃…呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃……呃呃呃！呃呃！！呃呃呃呃！呃呃！呃！呃呃呃…………呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃呃呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃……呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃……呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃…呃呃呃呃！呃…呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃…呃…呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃…呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃……呃呃！呃呃呃！呃…呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃……呃呃呃！呃呃呃…呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃……呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃…呃…呃！呃！呃…呃呃…呃！呃…呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃……呃呃呃！呃呃！！呃呃呃呃！呃呃！呃！呃呃呃…………呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃呃呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃……呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃……呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃…呃呃呃呃！呃…呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃…呃…呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃…呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃……呃呃！呃呃呃！呃…呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃……呃呃呃！呃呃呃…呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃……呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃…呃…呃！呃！呃…呃呃…呃！呃…呃呃呃！呃呃呃！呃呃！呃呃呃！呃！呃呃呃呃！」

我Down機了。




































醒來後，我被困在一間白色的房…
不…是黑色的…不……
是白色……
不……

我沒有手錶，牆上也沒有掛鐘，只有一張床和一部電視，之後我發現沒有電視看的時候是日頭，播著成龍的時候就是夜晚。

我想人人也懂跳我這支開心舞。

interesting link on biz and finance

Another TUT.

You were built to believe, designed to receive, and born to go where no one ever has.
Dream. Dream really BIG now.

26/09/2012

What a way to spend an afternoon with my dear gf Dyanna...

love :: mojo

love is a decision.

We call it a spiritual trifecta.

Many come close, yet few dare, so boldly, to live without judgment, to give without expecting, and to love for no reason.

A great weekend~

- what a great weekend!! - time with my special man, work with yummy home made lunch, 大鬧天宮, sleep, church, lunch at home with family <3, movie [argo] with popcorn and yummy drink, dinner with sc friends + teacher...!

Me --> We.

Another new chapter...

吾道：一以貫之，忠恕而已矣

責己以忠
待人以恕

Gum and Yan

QTs

surreal...

TUT-
The difference between being moments away from a big, HUGE dream coming true, is that, rather than light-years, lies in physically behaving, day by day, as if the dream were real, and all else was a dream.

Biking day.